Movie date, it is.

Walang nakapigil sa movie date ng BOHGITA, eventhough in the middle of typhoon, go pa din kami. Buti nalang Mom said yes, or else, doomed ako sa bahay. Feeling ko, kaya lang din ako pinayagan, because she knows im with my friends. and Yes, Movie date it is. NATULOY DIN. :)

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I was late sa usapan namin ni khuleets sa imus, haha. niratrat nanaman ako ni boss. *love you khuleets*, god, i missed her and all our talks. Ayun, walang katapusang daldalan na naman sa van. Kahit kelan talaga, hindi kami nawalan ng paguusapan. Level-up kasi, hindi na kami sa jeep nagkukwentuhan, sa van na. :)

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Weird ng pagkikita naming lima, kasi Honey was calling me pa nga, hindi namin alam nasa likod lang pala kami ng isat-isa. haha. Cool, eh? Ayun, we hugged each other. *sweet* went to buy ticket, ate at Pancake House. Syempre, may kasamang picture moment. May bago na namang pakana ang tropa, ang magic pose ko. haha. Laughtrip talaga kami, and i miss laughing out LOUD, with them.

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ASTROBOY is one of the COOLEST kiddie films ever! wala lang, natuwa lang ako sa story and sa film. Ang cute lang. Hindi dahil favorite ni first, pero dahil i do like the film. Andaming moral lesson. Thumbs up talaga. Hay, its just too sad kapag bye-bye time na. Im gonna miss them na naman. Oh well, NEXT MOVIE DATE: NEW MOON. Yehey! :)

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Twin and Kisses, WE MISSED YOU!

Goodbye, black hair.

i dyed my hair c/o Ate Ollie, wish granted! and currently loving it. Finally, Goodbye black hair. :)

Went home to Cavite by lunch time. Na-sad ako nung nagpaalam ako kay lira,

she's just too hard to leave. Ngayon pa na she's so close to me, more than ever.

It's an heartbreak when she waves goodbye, kissed me and said, 'ngat'. :-(

Anyway, good thing at walang traffic. whew. I missed home,

and yes, it always nice to be at HOME. :)

April, why took so long?

Went to UNILAB during the morning to deliver a package. Mam Leah and Sir Jamie came by Lunch time, then, pinapa-priority yung BOHOL Event today. And so, hanap ako ng good resort as well as contact them thru email and fone. Nakaka-excite. Bohol is something. Matagal ko na kasi gusto pumunta dun because of the dolphines. Its one of my dream destination in the Philippines. And in time, living it. Oh god. Anyway, medyo matagal pa yun. So, im gonna stop my excitement muna. April, why you took so long? :)

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I dreamt about him nga pala. pero weird, kasi si Precious Lara G. yung napaginipan ko. What about her? Eh, kasi, before, nakita ko siya may picture with Precious, jealous much? HINDI. That was so long ago. Kaya ang weird. What am i thinking at napaginipan ko yun? ack. HINDI KO DIN ALAM.

Gloomy Day.

Did the costume design because it was today's priority task. Napapadalas ang pagpho-photoshop ko, and im doing okay naman. Hopefully.

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Gloomy ang office today, because its so silent. Me and just the mini i-mac. One on one. wala lang, i just feel so alone plus, Mam Leah's sad. I think she cried. :(

She left me by 5:30 pm in the office. early, eh? Log out by 630 because im still finishing the color of the costumes na pina-revised. Went home by 730, nag-net muna ako sa net shop sa SFG because, I missing out post and repost on TUMBLR. haha. yes, my current online addiction.

KP Meeting.

photoshop ulit during the morning, then after lunch, i had to attend UNILAB's KP Meeting. Unexpected nga yun e. Super nakakahiya, because i wear shirt and jeans lang that time and all of them are in their corporate attires. Anyway, buti i dont get bored. I text and text lang during the meeting, then konting kwentuhan kay Kuya Nats and Kuya Chandler, and yes, they are so nice and i enjoyed their company kaya hindi din ako nabored. :) After the meeting, sinabay ako ni Kuya Nats pabalik ng office. *thanks kuya for the ride*. Photoshop again, and by 6, went home in Pasay.

photoshop.

Back again in the office, first task: Deposit check to BDO. Sa sobrang tagal ng service nila that time, nakatulog ako. Natawa nga ako sa sarili ko because im being called na pala. *jahe* :P
Second task, is to make a layout for our christmas give-away which is an organizer/planner/ notebook. I photoshopped the whole day! I just missed it! I miss making layouts, at kahit hindi pa ako talaga super bihasa on making one, good thing at natapos ko naman and Mam Leah likes it. Yehey! I think God is hearing my prayers, hopefully, sana tama lahat ng ginagawa ko at magtuloy-tuloy. I know, god has plans and whatever it is that he plans, i know its ALWAYS for the better.

Random Thoughts.

as always, lumilipad na naman ang utak ko everytime i hear mass. And for the first time, i wanna share this thoughts, with you, guys:

* Firstly, i was thinking of quitting my current job when my contract ends by February. Kaya lang, nagdadalawang isip pa talaga ako, kasi im okay naman with my work, i get to save- REALLY SAVE. Plus, the GOODNESS of my BOSS'- Sir Jamie and Mam Leah, their hospitality, yung CARE na pinapakita nila samin ni Krinel. That was just too HARD to let go of. Feeling ko, i could never ever find another Boss like them. But on the other hand, I really wanted to pursue my HAPPINESS. Hindi ko naman sinasabi na im not happy with the company. Actually, i am naman, but there's still MISSING. Meron akong ibang hinahanap. I asked myself if i should still give it another six months, part of me wants to say, "yes, stay." but another, "go and find your happiness" I dunno which is much i wanted to pursue. Hell, im so confused. Okay, joni. Im giving you 4 months to decide. I bow my head to God, and asked for his help.

* I was thinking hard if i really miss HIM, or its just the feeling of MISSING him. Ang weird ko talaga at ang ironic. But really, most of the time, nagfa-flashback talaga sakin yung memories namin. Tinatanung ko sa sarili ko kung makakahanap pa ako o ma-fe-feel ko yung ganung happiness at contentment, feeling ko kasi, i met my other half already. pero alam kong, hindi dapat ako magsalita ng tapos. pero everytime na may dumadating, it doesnt equate the feeling i feel when i met him. yung comfort, yung warmth. Hindi naman ako dapat magmadali, i know. But i hope, god would help me heal and give me hope just a little bit more. Feeling ko kasi, im in a state of trauma, it's so hard for me to believe again. In time, i know, god will be able to open my heart once more, sana this time, yung totoong ibibigay niya na for me. I hope.

* CHANGES. It's ALL i EVER WANTED these days. Andami kong gustong baguhin. I wanted to have braces, to perm my hair, to dye my hair, i wanted to buy an i-touch, i wanted to shop. Dati, iniisip ko magtipid and all, pero lately, naisip kong im working to get what i wanted, selfish ba? pero ewan ko ba. METANOIA. Sudden change of heart ang nangyari after my one week break. I dunno what influences me, but i WANTED these CHANGES so BAD, and i dont even know why. Is this my way of liberating myself to the old me? HINDI naman. Minsan, kahit gano ko kakilala sarili ko, nasho-shock at na-susurprise ako sa mga bagay na naiisip, ginagawa ko at sa mga gusto kong gawin. Totoo, people have secret desires, and once you knew it and find out what it is, you wanted it to be possible. I wish this CHANGE will do me GOOD.

And oh, found this on tumblr (Actually, i have a lots of quotes to share na sobrang OUCH, but these one's my, yes, current favorite, because it say's a lot, about that 'SOMEONE'):

“You’ll get over it…” It’s the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don’t get over it because ‘it” is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never loses. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no-one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?”-Jeanette Winterson

the good thing.

still sick. bigat parin talaga ng katawan ko. Ngayon nalang ulit ako nilagnat ng ganito.
But the good thing is, mom and i are really okay now. Thank God. :-)

cough and colds.

We're supposed to party at lax tonight, but unfortunately, im sick. I have FLU, cough and cold. Argh. Im hating it. I literally cant breathe. Uwi talaga ako sa bahay galing MOA. S*cks. I need to feel better soon. Monday's coming up. Back to work. huhu. :-(

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Anyway, got this picture from tumblr, and yes, i remember someone. I badly wish he'd remember me- even if its not as often as i do. :(

Flashback.

"I want you to sing to me. I want you to give me hugs when I least expect it, and whisper into my ear so that one spot on my left hip tickles. I want you to hold my hand and have your fingertips linger on top of mine. I want you to grab my legs with your legs so I have to wrestle them out. I want you to give me piggy back rides, or the other way around, seeing how you’re little. I want you to whisper little secrets into my ear and trust me with your life. I want you to give me your sweater when I’m cold, and put your arm over my shoulder so everyone knows that I’m yours. I want you to want me. I want you to sit and snuggle with me. I want to play hide and seek with you, and freeze tag, and manhunt. I want to run while holding your hand. I want to act like a little kid with you. I want you to want to be next to me, and find excuses to do so. I want you to wake up in the morning and think, “hey, maybe I should call her.” I know I’m not the most gorgeous person in the world, but I want you to tell me that I’m beautiful, and mean it. I want you to throw me into the pool, your pool. I want you to muss up my hair and when it’s curly I want you to play with the rings. I want you to compliment me when I least expect it. I want you to meet my eye when you’re talking to somebody else, and smile. I want you to make the first move, god dammit. I want you to put your hand on the little part of my waist, and let me nuzzle against your shoulder. I want you to share half your sandwich with me when my parents refuse to give me any more lunch money. I want to listen to your iPod with you, and do my awkward little dance, and lip sync with you. I want you to make me a ring out of that hundred dollar bill. I want to build a fort with you. I want to live my life with you. I want you to always be there when I need you. I need you. I do."
-tumblr

I shouldve be over by now. But sometimes, memories of him really knocks me down. I wish he knew how much it still hurts me up to now, selfish it may seem. i just wanted him to know how much all the things we've shared together means a whole lot to me. I wish he know. I totally wish he knew.

Yacht Party.

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partied till dawn at the Manila Yacht Club for the post birthday celebration of my friend, Jovelle. Super pictorial. :-)
Love the pictures! For more pics, visit my multiply site. :)

MULTIPLY

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Happy Birthday Achi. I love you to pieces. :-)

I miss.

"i miss the smell of you first thing in the morning,
i miss being molded against you like two pieces of a puzzle;
I miss your hands gently brushing against my face.
I miss you.
I miss everything."

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Anyway, Greetings to Cutie, Bryan, and Kuya Randee!
Happy Birthday :-)

i know he'll never come back.

" I still think of him sometimes. I'd like to know where he is, if he found what he was looking for that afternoon, if he's still alive, or if god took his soul. i know he'll never come back, which is why i could love him with such strength and such certainty, because i know I would never lose him."

- Brida; Paulo Coelho.

Yes, I still think of him not just sometimes, but most of the time. "Brida", makes me believe what I felt for *midsummer nights dream* was real, and that we fell in love with someone even if its just a month, a week, or one afternoon that we will never ever forget.

MQ.

Mother's Quarrel. After such a long time, ngayon nalang kami nag-away. :-(

* I was going to dye my hair, hindi pwede.
* I was gonna shop in Divisoria, hindi pwede.
* I was going out because it's my friends birthday, hindi pwede.

Eh, anu nalang ang pwede?
I was given 1 week break, What am i gonna do sa bahay? Oh my. :-(

Tagaytay till dawn.

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We surprised yakisova! We made it. haha. Ayun, bago palang kami umalis, laughtrip na. Roadtrip papuntang tagaytay! we ordered sa Steak It, picture-an galore. Then, chill sa Starbucks, eat and drink! super heaven yung feeling that i get to bond with them, parang walang oras. :-) After the chill, they decided to drink, so hanap kami ng bilihan and roadtrip ulit. We stayed malapit sa house nila tin, ayun, laughtip-an hangang umaga. Ang saya super, para kaming mga bata. Tagaytay with my FOREVER girlfriends till 4 in the morning was HEAVEN. Laughtrip! Laughtrip! Laugtrip! plus nalang yung, ROADTRIP. :-) Went home by 4 in the morning at yakisova's house. Dooze off. haha.

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Happy Bestfriends Day Yakisova and First :-)

CMMA.

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This is it! Assistant Production Manager for a day. Define pagod, stress, presure, lahat lahat na! naiyak na nga ako sa CR sa sobrang halo halong emotion that day, but its ALL WORTH IT naman in the end... and UNFORGETTABLE.

Here's why:

*met and assist Zaijan Jaranilla aka SANTINO! Finally! Sa kanya ako na-starstruck ng bongga! At kahit pinatakbo niya ako ng bongga sa hallway, love ko pa din siya! :)
* met Jose Mari Chan which is super DOWN TO EARTH! wala ako masabi. i am a FAN! And although hindi ko nga siya masyado naasikaso, he sincerely thanked me, at may beso pa. :)
* reunion namin ni Kyle Balili. haha. ;)
* The COOLEST PRIESTS ON EARTH: Mga Father ng 'May Bukas Pa'
Super Mababait sila at Cool na cool lang! parang hindi mga artista. ;)
* my friend, Ange, from St. Scholastica's College for winning the Students Best Documentary. I am proud of you. ;)

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And sharing my reflections i submitted to my boss, here's my favorite part:

"But the amidst all of it, the good thing is that, I know I did my best on doing my task, I made the performers comfortable, I was able to give stabs to crew on time, and I definitely had fun even if im faced with pressures and stress, and taking this challenge has been my drive to work beyond what I can. Even if I lack sleep, restless and my feet ache like mad, I think it’s still all worth it. The accomplishment of an event like this only happens once in a lifetime."

2 days before the CMMA.

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October 12

* Finish all the editing's and stuff
* Checking all the production materials
* Revising all the documents
* Printing of the Documents

October 13
* Repeat all the things i did yesterday.
* Dinner at a Japanesse Restaurant with Sir Jamie at Rockwell, super full ako. Talked about stuff, about the task, the overnights in the office, my work, with the officemate, with Mam Lea, and random things.
* went to San Carlos for the Checking of the set-up, heard Ghost Stories from the guard, i feel a bit scared, but not much. TAPANG! haha. :-)
* Midnight snack at Kowloon in Quezon Ave. Sarap ng siopao dun super.
* slept 4 am in the morning.

Goodluck! :-)

PS:
I dreamt of 'midsummer nights dream', he wanted to work things out. weird. Lam ko namang dream lang yun. Come on. But god, i wished it'll come true. :(

sunday with zhiee.

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A very unusual sunday spent with zhiee. Went to SM Bacoor para samahan siya sa driving lesson, chill sa the coffee experience near A1, ayun, she makes kwento of the new guy, and im really happy with that, she needs to enjoy her life and embrace some changes once in a while. Basta, kung saan siya happy. Anyway, ayun nga, sinamahan ko si zhiee sa driving lessons niya. Cool! marunong na mag-drive si zhiee! yey! Gimik na! hehe. :-)

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Finally, i was able to change my atm's pin. Thanks to zhiee for the help! wee. I'll miss her. sana makasama ko naman siya sa gimik. :-)

Rehearsal Day.

Checking all the things needed for the rehearsal today. All checked! :')
Me and Sir Jamie went to Rockwell to buy meryenda for the crew. Grabe, ang ganda talaga sa rockwell. It's actually my first time. Boo! Im such a loser, i know. :-)

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Met Ate Marianne, the events assistant for the CMMA, and we became friends agad. We share a common field din, Mass Communication, kaya click agad. Yey! Ayun, kwentuhan kami about our jobs, and all random things, she toured me sa mga rooms ng San Carlos which will be using for the CMMA, ayun. Nakinig lang ako sa meeting which lasted ilang hours lang din naman. After that, meryenda time! Im not actually a fan of Cinnamon, but i ended up eating 2 breads of it, it tasted good naman, not to sweet. During the uwian, humiwalay na ako, because i'll be going home in Cavite, Finally! Medyo matagal ako naghintay sa EDSA, thanks to a man who helped me find a bus. There's still a gentleman after all. :)

Tired.

Went home in pasay by 11 am in the morning and im so so tired. I slept the whole day till 5pm. Gees. Ang weird ng feeling pala ng ganun. Groggy! haha. I just rest, watch my current favorite show, 'Lovers in Paris' dati, sabi ko hindi ako manonood, kasi hindi naman ako fan ni Piolo at Kc, but when i watched it, okay naman pala. Akalain mong, kinikilig ako sa kanila? haha. After watching, nag-net lang ako sandali, then a bad thing happened again, nadisgrasya na naman si Lira, natama yung face niya sa may cabinet, sobrang nagpasa talaga. huhu. wawa naman baby namin. We end up sleeping by 2 in the morning dahil sa accident. Gees.

Busy Day.

I went home 8 in the morning. whew. How's that? Haha. Sobrang office hours no? hihi. pero, okay lang naman, medyo groggy lang. whew. Sleep for awhile then balik ulit sa office. No MRT for today. d*mn it. Anlayo tuloy ng sinakyan ko, then, rode a bus, sobrang traumatic yung experience, kasi muntik na makabanga yung bus. Oh gees. Nawindang talaga ako. Anyway, came at the office by 3:20. Im late for 20 mins. Did again the rest of my task's, watch TV muna (hehe) and online. Then, wait for Kuya John to arrive at the office. Editing again si kuya. Whew. Busy Busy Day. :l

Practicing to be organize.

Did the rest of the production work today: Fixing all the id lace, song lyrics, checking of all the listed production materials lahat inorganize ko na. Weird. parang hindi ako. haha. But it was a cool change isnt it? Finally, im learning to be MORE organize, i hope, im doing it the right way. I stayed at the office dahil editing again si Kuya John for the Serviam Award. Bow. :-)

Tasks.

I was emailed by Sir Jamie about my task for the day, andami. Nagulat ako and i listed it, para wala ako makalimutan at para sure na magawa. Whew. I called the suppliers, production team, and etc. and proudly did all the task naman. PM na PM ang dating. lols. :-) When Sir Jamie and Mam Leah came, we reviewed lang ng mga task na nagawa namin for the day.

Bad day.

Went to UNILAB to give a CD to the corporate affairs, after that, walked along to the BPI Sheredan to deposit something. Super ngayon nalang ako naglakad ng ganun kalayo plus, super init pa that time, gees. pero, okay lang naman. what makes me pissed is... after 45 years, NADAPA AKO, literally. All bruised, pero hindi naman major, i got really scars, sa may arms ko, since yun yung pinangtukod ko. Super na-shocked ako and at the same time, super sakit niya talaga. Kaya nga sa tryke at sa jeep, nanginginig ako. Ouch! :-(

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It's the fifth day of October, why im so malas? :-(

Unusual.

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Malling with Achie and her Boyfriend, Ryan at SM Bacoor. So Unusual, it is.
But whatever makes my sister happy, oh well, im happy for her.
Dinner at FrenchBaker *yum* and bought a new shoe at ARTWORK, yes, another shoes! *yikes*

No night-out, sweetie.

I was not able to go out tonight because of the bagyong "Pepeng". Boo! :(((

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But anyway, greet to my officemate, Krinel.
Happy Birthday Garl! =)

Upload.

Upload day today. I uploaded lots of pictures!!! Whew. :))

Proud Volunteer of LSGH Operation Team.

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Challenging yung day na to sakin, because i was left in LSGH to volunteer again. No Mam Leah and Sir Jamie, and no Krinel who'd help me or ask me if im doing okay. So, there. Telethon again, nung morning, walang masyadong calls, dumami lang during the afternoon. Im getting by, i know im getting by, super na-dumbstruck lang ako when a cutie came at the office, shet. Mala-JUSTIN BIEBER! my type! haha. Super na-swept away ata talaga ako dun at na-conscious. :)))

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Moving on, I must say na nag-enjoy talaga ako and that's what matters. I knew, after this, mamimiss ko talaga yung Operation Team na naka-worked with ko even if its just 2-days. I am proud to be a volunteer, and i am proud to be part of the LSGH Operation team who really worked so hard in order to help the victims of ONDOY, I know, i will never ever forget this.

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Meet with honey at savers, Honey's got a new haircut! weeeee. super mega bagay!! :))
Anyways, went home to just rest and wait for marlon & untong, dinner-out at Steak It, Tagaytay! Define Roadtrip= Eto na yon. Haha. Gees. So Glad to be on my Comfort Zone! and although im tired and restless, super nag-enjoy naman ako at na-relax at out dinner out. On time for the curfew, Cinderella. :)