application in FEU.

Everyone's still asleep when i left the house for an interview in FEU, Sampaloc. At exactly 8:00 in the morning, i'm at the HR office and waiting for my interview to start. First, i fill out their application form, then, i had three exams- personality test which is an essay. (yung mga "what if....", "If you could....") second is to write a short original introduction for FEU-East Asia College. At first, i thought my brains gonna explode kasi wala akong maisip partly because i had no idea of FEU's culture. But in the end, I feel confident naman with the things that i wrote before i pass it pero pinagpawisan ako dun. Next, i had I.Q and personality exam, but this time, it was time constraint. Hindi ko natapos yung sa I.Q test. Bagal ng I.Q ko. Feeling ko mababaliw yung magbabasa nung mga sagot ko because it was so random, i was so random. After 3 exams, pinag-lunch muna nila ako before proceeding to the next. Didn't had lunch though, i just stroll around the campus and ask myself if i really wanted this. Iniisip ko kung magiging happy ba ako if i took the job. Andaming question sa utak ko na alam ko naman ang sagot.
Went to Ate tina for company in Tech building and watched the IT student's Fashion show. It was lousy. Natuwa lang ako during the performance of the gay's because It was so liberal. The gay is just wearing a one-piece swim suit like 'beyonce' while dancing. It was hilarious btw!
Went back to the office by one and met a new friend rainne. She came from UP Diliman and studied Linguistics. Tumbling. But what i liked about her is that she's so down to earth and humble. Buti nalang we clicked although i regret that i didn't get the chance to get her number before she went out for an interview. Anyway, my last test for today was a panel interview wherein i was ask the usual "tell me something about yourself that is not written in your resume" and the surprising, "public speaking" Oh no! but after my lousy performance, they complimented the write-up that i did awhile ago. FEU Admins are amazing people. Ang babait nila.

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Meet-up with Belle, Ann and Rachel in MCDO Quirino for late lunch. Kwentuhan while eating. Sinamahan ko din sila sa Agency nila papuntang Singapore. Now, mas nafe-feel ko na yung sadness na soon enough, hindi ko na sila makakasama. Kaya nga sinusulit ko yung mga times na nag-aaya sila because i wanted to spend more time with them while they're here.
Ride all the way home feeling sad and kept reading Chapter of Luke. When i came home, i talked to mom and suddenly, the tears started flowing. And i kept saying, "wala na akong pera. Hindi ako sanay na walang pera." Pero deep inside, hindi naman talaga yun yung reason why i cried.
I cried because i felt like i'm losing hope that i won't be able to get the job that I want, i felt sad because i'm tired of all the interviews, i felt hopeless because i'm getting impatient. After crying, i felt better when mom started telling me, "darating din yun.."
I know. And will now bring my faith back.