skyping.

I had a great heart-to-hear talk with aya thru skype. Here's my favorite:

[1:28:45 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: Oo naman. hindi ka pa kasi fully-healed kaya naglo-long ka pa din. Ganyan din ako noon. Sabi ko, siya na. siya lang. Pinagdadasal ko pa yun kay god na kapag bumalik siya or whatsoever, tatangapin ko. pero it never happened. May mga tao kasi na darating, pero di magiging atin.
[1:31:04 PM] Aya Remolin: May mga tao kasi na darating, pero di magiging atin.
[1:31:10 PM] Aya Remolin: i like.
[1:31:43 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: totoo naman diba. dumadaan lang.
[1:31:59 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: di nagtatagal.
[1:32:13 PM] Aya Remolin: Oo.

Whenever Aya and I talked, naaalala ko yung ako dati kay emman. Literal kasi na nahirapan ako sa pag move-on and i felt like everyday is a struggle. Just like aya feels right now. I wanted to tell her that it's gonna be fine in the long run and that it'll heal pero i know, hindi magiging ganun kadali because she needs to go with the process for her to fully understand and make it through to her own battle.
Noon, naaalala ko how i went through everyday struggling and fighting to just let it all go and everyday i failed because I can't stand the fact that we're over. But one day, i just woke up and the pain is gone. Hindi fully, but I'm healing and that's what matters at the end of the day. Malaking part siguro ng pag-move on ko is that I accepted already that he's never really come back and that magic isn't real. It is true that in order for one person to wake up, one must open her eyes.


Next, I was invited on a conference again in skype and i really enjoyed the conversations we had because it was so random! Oh well, here's my favorite part. I'll explain why after the conversation part.

[4:55:17 PM] Marco Gallego: joni mga linya mo.. kung san sya masya masaya ka na rin.. whatever..
[4:55:37 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: wag ka na lang magreact!
[4:56:09 PM] Marco Gallego: ksama ako sa conference kaya magrereact ako..
[4:56:12 PM] Aya Remolin: LQ [joke]
[4:56:22 PM] Aya Remolin: Pero joni, totoo naman yun, masaya ako para sa kanya.
[4:56:27 PM] Marco Gallego: haha.. si princess kasi.. hahaha
[4:56:33 PM] Aya Remolin: Yehess..
[4:56:37 PM] Aya Remolin: M.I.B.
[4:56:43 PM] Aya Remolin: Muling I-Balik
[4:56:45 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: Marco, whatever. Haha!
[4:56:58 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: Aya, M.I.B ka dyan.
[4:57:11 PM] Aya Remolin: Wow, naalala ko yun ah. Princess at Prince. Mas sweet pala tawagan niyo dati,
[4:57:12 PM] Aya Remolin: Haha
[4:58:14 PM] Marco Gallego: hahahahahaha... prince charming kasi ako ni princess.. di ba diba? hahaha
[4:58:27 PM] Aya Remolin: Kapal.
[4:58:43 PM] Aya Remolin: Baka Prince Charmee [the sanitary napkin]
[4:58:50 PM] Marco Gallego: sus.. hahaha
[4:59:04 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: Hahahahahaha! Natatawa ako.
[4:59:22 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: Naalala pa pala ni marco yun.
[4:59:47 PM] Marco Gallego: sus.. i may be a jerk pero hindi ako nakakalimot..
[5:00:58 PM] Joni Anne Benedictos: you're not a jerk.

It's as simple as he remembered. Mostly, some guys would just forget all about it especially if it's just a short relationship, but im glad to know that somehow, he never forgets. Secondly, Nagulat ako kasi di ko akalain na babangitin niya pa yung mga ganun, "prince and princess" that i ended up just staring at the monitor and laughing in a good way because he's not really like that. Hindi nga ako maka-react kasi i can't believe that he actually brought that up. Haha! But honestly, it made me smile. No feeling of "kilig" whatsoever, but the happiness to what we have right now, Friends. :)