new blog.

I moved to a new home.

my Neverland.

:)

Rest well now, Joan.

I unexpectedly received a message early in the morning for a job interview today. Ayoko sana pumunta because my heart was still hoping that i'll get a message from star cinema at the end of the week. But since my mom insist me to go, i did. I didn't expect that there are a lot of applicants in the Be connected/Bench/Suyen main office that i ended up dumb folded when I came in. Okay, I had a long exam-english, essay and math (fck, math! i hate you) and waited for 5 hours for my interview. Yes, that long. Muntik na nga ako umalis, kung hindi ko lang inisip yung hinintay ko because I'm actually pissed already and so as the other applicants na kasama ko maghintay. And oh, the interview only lasted 5-10 minutes. And to cut the application story short, I think that I wasted my day for nothing.

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Early that day, i received a message from Nikka that our elementary friend, Joan Vargas passed away. Hindi ko alam ang i-rereact ko, hindi kami ganun ka-close when we we're younger, but i can say that we are friends. Nalungkot talaga ako because she's gone too early. :|
Nikka, Alisa, Aiko, Fritz, Ralph, Lino, Miguel and me went to Joan's wake and we got totally emotional, lalo na si aiko who can't stop crying. Hindi kami makapaniwala that she did passed away. Sabi nga ni nikka, "parang kelan lang.." totoo, i still can remember how bubbly she was during our elementary days, nakakalaro ko pa siya noon at idol ko talaga yan kasi super active niyan sa kahit saan, lalo na sa dancing. I also remember her for her pigtails, Araw araw ganun ang ayos ng buhok niya, parang si chabilita. Lastly, her smile that makes her Ms. Sunshine, kasi whenever she smiles, the room becomes brighter.
Nung nasa wake kami, andami namin nalaman about her, how good, generous, responsible, dedicated and hardworking she is as a person. Tumaas ang kamay ko sa kanya kasi at the early age, she strives so hard para mabigyan ng magandang buhay yung family niya. Wala akong masabi how selfless she is. I know, even if she's gone too early, she lived her life the best way she knows how. Feeling ko, happy naman siya because she had given enough and beyond. How selfless she loves her family to the extend of giving up her life for them. Kaya naman without a doubt, kinuha na siya ni God to give her all the rest and happiness she needs in his comforting arms.
Joan, you are such an inspiration. I adore you and we will remember you.

vampire diaries.

Elena Gilbert, Stefan and Damon Salvatore in Vampire Diaries.

I love each and every episode of it. :)

Please, make miracles happen.

"Please, make miracles happen" i keep on saying this while waiting for a bus that is not full. But i see no hope that i'll be able to ride one and so, before the clock hits nine, i took a jeep instead. I hate Mondays! but no, i should love this Monday because its the day I'm closer to fulfilling my dream. I was late, but the good thing was, the interview hasn't starting yet.
The supposed to be 10am interview became 12pm but it went okay, i think I answered the best way I can and i hope it works. (Badly, hoping) The HR officer said that i'll come back by 2:30 for an exam and i feel my heart lightens.
I took lunch (thanks for the PKT production lunch) in Studio 9 while catching up with Mhel Rose. I missed her, we haven't seen each other for a month. Nakakatuwa na lahat ng dumadating na kakilala niya, pinapakilala niya ako as her sister. May naniniwala, meron namang hindi. The people who believes in our joke must be crazy. Janna also came by to say "hi" and we also catch up. But because they'll be back to work na, i came back to Star Cinema lobby too early and met a new friends, kirk and madel. I both had great conversations with them.
The exam was nerve wracking especially, the test 2 that i didn't get the chance to finish. I felt sad after it. Test 1 and 3 is okay, but i'm keeping my fingers crossed already that i'll make it. After the stressful exam, Kirk, Madel and I bid our goodbyes and idealistically hoping that we'll all pass so we could work together.

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After the draining day, i really got a horrible headache on the way home. plus, i took ordinary bus instead of the air-conditioned ones because the line in the terminal was crazy.
This Monday is unbelievable! parang sandwhich. On the way to ABS-CBN and on the way home took a lot of effort and hardship. Haha! Anyhow, the today's between that matters.
Although this day is more than exhausting and i feel like i should not keep my hopes high, i slept with just enough hope in my heart.

fist sunday of august.

Psalm 147:3

"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds."

Blessed first Sunday of the month and I'm feeling that this month is my month. Hopefully.