hope for the hopeless.

After months of Achi not opening up, she finally did today. It's always hard seeing her cry and i can't do something about it. I just listened to her and try my best to understand the situation but it all comes down to the same old drama that keeps her the prisoner who can't get away.
I know that probably, I'm just saying this because i was not in her shoes, that maybe, I say this because i moved on and i'm okay now. But maybe, I'm saying this because i wanted her to free herself and wake her up that there's more into life than being with someone who never treats her right. Siguro nga, minahal siya nun, pero kulang na kulang to stand up for it. The guy may have reasons and problems that we do not understand, pero sana, hindi niya ginagawang reason yun to hang the girl in thin air and saying "just be there"? It's not love, it's selfishness.
Hindi titigil ang mundo para sa kanya dahil sa may problema siya, hindi din lahat ng tao maiintindihan kung anu pinagdadaanan niya pero hindi yun dahilan para gawing miserable din ang buhay ng iba dahil hindi niya maayos ang sa kanya. If he's man enough, he'd fix himself first then come back pag maayos na, hindi yung paghihintayin niya yung tao ng walang kasiguraduhan. Kasi, kahit sino tanungin mo, lahat naman nagsasabing maghihintay sila, pero napapagod din sa huli. Wala naman talagang naghintay na di napapagod o nagigising sa katotohanang wala na pala silang hinihintay.
If he really loves my sister, he would let her FULLY go so she could be MORE happy.
As to my sister, as long as there's life, there's hope. Sana hindi niya isiping hindi niya kaya magbago, kasi i know that she can, she just keeps resisting and tormenting herself. Sabi ko nga before to a friend, we're given a chance everyday to turn things around and im saying it again for achi. We're given almost everyday of our life to create possibilities and choices, what we need to do is use it. There is always hope, let's not take that away from ourselves because even if we seem hopeless, god provides us with more.

unexpected.

Everything is getting better and I'm just so thankful. Hindi ko alam what it is today that makes me so damn lucky that everything and everyone that i didn't expected to happen, happens.
After the simple celebration of Tita Jheng's birthday in pasay, Star Cinema called and i was informed that i was scheduled for an interview on Monday. Wow. Star Cinema. my dream company. After my 4th attempt on sending them my resume, i am so glad (more than glad) that they responded. I can't believe it. After the call, i was shaking and hoping that this is the start. Ang hirap mag-hope or rather nakakatakot, but i am keeping my fingers crossed that i passed. That's my only wish right now.
Secondly, i was surprised that I got "likes" on my status in FB from emman and that he even pm'd me on FB chat and congratulated me on my article and said that he's happy for me.
(and as always, Whenever he said something, i always find it easy to believe it.)
Lastly, 'someone' texted me a quote again after such a long time. Syempre, nagulat ako ng basahin ko yung name niya after the message and i say to myself, "okay, gm." but atleast, napasama ako. Hindi ko na masyado inintindi yung quote, sapat na yung name niya which i long to see in my inbox. Dati kasi, siya lang yung laman nun. I didn' t replied, yet. I texted a quote when i thought he'd be in dreamland na. But i was surprised that he send a quote again and i replied a short 'just like the old time message' na parang walang gap or something. But every time i read his message, i know that we can never go back to our old 'bargasan' times. I know it means nothing to him and i respected that. Hindi ko na nga inexpect he'd text me again-ever and hindi na naman ako umaasa ng mas higit pa sa kung anu yung konting meron kami ngayon as friends, like we've always been. (Ako lang naman kasi yung may gusto) I'm trying to sleep happy and felt no hurt. Maybe, I realize na okay na ako sa kung anu yung mga natatangap ko o kung ano yung meron ako at the moment at importante din naman yun, because without contentment, you'll never be happy.