what on earth im waiting for?

"what on earth I'm waiting for
I'm not supposed to love you anymore
Oh I shouldn't care and wonder where and how you are
but I can hide this hurt inside my broken heart
I'm fighting back emotions that I've never fought before
'cause I'm not supposed to love you anymore"
-Im not suppose to love you anymore; Brian White

Finally, got a song that BEST describes what i feel today.