it flows like it doesnt want to stop.

"If you can say that you don't love me
If you can look me in the eye
and say that you don't love me
I could say goodbye
If you can tell me you won't miss me
And sound convincing when you say
You won't miss me
I could walk away."
-The Absence of your company; Kim Richey

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Today, I read his past messages on my special notebook, although i tried not to cry, i did. It was a solid cry, and it flows like it doesn't want to stop. I miss him. I miss his words, his sweetness, his thoughtfulness, his promises. I miss him, i just really really do. I keep my notebook on the cabinet, and i'll try not to read it now,or tomorrow, or the next day. But i'm such a bad liar.

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That quote, up there, is from a song i'm currently addicted to, which is from Grey's Anatomy Season 4. Hell, it was exactly how i feel, as if i was the one who wrote it. Anyway, Ive had a lot of pains today- physically. I suffered again from my scoliosis attack early morning, good thing mom massage my back to ease the pain which took me an hour to endure. This noon, my breast hurts like mad. I dont know why. It just, hurts.