Sooner, not later.

"i have said the words "i love you" so many times. its when i thought i found someone really special in my life. but i realized something just now. its very very very hard to say "i love you" to someone special when you really really really mean it. it feels like those words are not enough or even close to what im really feeling. she makes me feel things i could not even explain. its not about who i am to her, but who she is for me. not about what i can get from her, but what i can give to her. i feel like crying when she is sad, im at my happiest when she is. i feel like i am connected to her. everything just seems to be better when i am with her. i would exchange a lifetime for a day with her. she has a heart bigger than the universe. her smile can calm the wildest storms. her words could melt any heart in an instant. every moment with her is just like heaven, no, better. i thought that someone like her only exists in movies, in books. i was wrong. shes real. shes in the same world here with me, making my life just like a fairytale. in the short period of time that ive known her, she made me feel things that i know i wouldnt feel with anyone else even in the longest time. she is one of a kind. in my life, and for me... she is definitely "someone special". - Emman Praxedes; April 27, 2009

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Damn. Finally, i got it. Thought i wasn't gonna find this ever again. Hinanap ko na sa e-mail, sa Friendster bulletin which he had posted months back, kahit alam kong hindi ko na makikita because he had deleted his account. Argh. MUNTIK NA AKONG MAIYAK KASI AKALA KO, HINDI KO NA MABABASA ULIT. Now, im relieved, and im happy. Okay, so, he had written this article for me, and this is the sweetest thing ever a guy had ever done for me. After I read this months back, it does makes my heart swept away, and still is. I miss him. I wish he'd come back. Sooner, not later. :(

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And oh, got a text message from the Ms. Cheche from Orange place, ill be reporting for my 2nd interview. Geez. Hopefully, i pass. I badly need a work, as in B-A-D-L-Y.