i cant bring it back.

"Remember when i was dead? Before i went in that water, everything was so complicated and hard. And then, you pulled me out of the water, and i came back to life. For a moment, everything was so clear, as if the water had washed everything clean."
- Meredith Grey; Greys Anatomy

I texted him that quote last night, said that quotes was meant for him. I was really hoping he would reply, and yes he did-again. I kept on reading his text over and over again. I'm a bit disappointed. No, im really really disappointed, although i know, i don't have the right to. I felt sad, more than sad. down, more than down. After that, i read his text messages again, yes i made a promise, but i'm not good at keeping one- just this one.

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Today, i'm so exhausted. I'm the one assigned in shop, kuya has a work, mom's at her graduation. I did all the work, and i hate it. My head aches all the time. But it's kinda' worth it because id able to pass 100+ resume's, yes, im that- DESPERATE.

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I made up my mind, i will finish my gift, so i can give it to him as soon as possible. Sa totoo lang, hindi ako nageexpect ng anything. I just wanted to give him that gift. First time kong mageeffort ng ganun, so sana, kahit pano, maappreciate niya. I'll try my best not to over-do it.

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I'm freakin' sad, all his comments in Friendster are gone. as in, ALL GONE. I wasnt able to copy it and save. argh. Pero wala na ako magagawa dun, i cant bring it back, just as i know, he will never come back.