my TWO people.

Went to MOA for the Harry Potter date with the JOU people. Yey! Okay, I saw Marco again. Good thing, didn't feel anything naman. I finally had moved on. really? Yes, yes. I really think so. Although i must admit that he will remain and will also be special. Weird ng feeling, man.

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Anyway, back to the HP movie, medyo disappointed ako. Kasi, i had read the book again diba? so medyo fresh pa yung details, then sa movie andaming revisions and andaming alteration which is not a good thing, although okay naman yung sequence and all and man, the effects are GREAT! i love the fire thing-y and the inferi scene. The best yun. After the movie, meryenda sa food court, i only ate ice cream since my stomach ache's like its gonna explode. Hell. I texted my boss, and i honestly know, she's mad at me, so the rest of the day-out is messed up. na-paranoid ako dun and i worry most of the time, kaya sumabay nalang ako kila Sam and Marco pauwi. As usual, HP Movie ang usapan, wala talaga akong masabi kay Marco, he's a real fan. Nawindang ako kasi alam na alam niya talaga LAHAT. Come on! Medyo palagay na ako na kausap siya, i dont get distracted na, and i feel at ease, unlike before na medyo nahihiya ako and all, but its crazy to think na when i look at him, wala na yung intensity. Anyway, hell ang traffic pa-cavite, it s*cks dahil my stomach ache's like MAD. as in mad. Argh. :(

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Went to shop, online and Emman PM'd me at YM thru Kuya Randee's. Weird kasi, after a month, ngayon nalang siya ulit nagparamdam. He said he missed me, i felt my heart was gonna explode from joy, but i tried to control it, the good thing about me now, in this unexpected situation is my ability to keep myself intact although i should be vulnerable.but yes, I hope, i honestly hope that he really missed me. Pero alam mo yun, i wanted to protect my heart again- i brutally want to stay as intact as possible so i wont be swept away again. I know, i still love him and i still miss him more than anyone, pero minsan, kahit gaano ko kagusto sabihin yung mga bagay na yun sa kanya, hindi assurance yun para bumalik siya.. and my mind say's: Risk Joni, risk.