I was born to wait forever.

I threw up bago palang ako makarating sa MCDO ATC sa sobrang hang-over. good thing, water lang. i knew i would threw up, kaya water lang kinain ko for breakfast. wow. Okay,

Meet-up with Mam Teena at ATC Mcdo for our meeting in Tagaytay Highlands. Buti, i feel better na. Meeting went okay. Then, punta naman sa Makati for another one. Whew.

Realizations for the day: This is it. Welcome real world, where tough and strong people are. Poor me, im not that ready. Feeling ko, gusto ko na agad mag-give up. Im so not like this. Siguro kasi, ive got a lot of things running in my head. My heart aches all the time, Im not that prepared at hindi ako yung type of person na madaling mag-cope. pero sabi nga nila, sa real world, hindi sila ang magaadjust para sayo, you have to take a splurge to the unknown.

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Lately, im getting sadder, and sadder. Hindi ko na nga alam kung pano maging masaya. Literal. I felt I was really doomed to be sad all my life, which is i know, a negative thing, i know, but i cant help it. I felt i was born to wait forever. Waiting is my forever. Isnt it sad? It is.