We are in this world to grace other people through our goodness despite the evilness of the world.

Firstly, I don't know how to explain this and why i wanted to say this. I really wanted to quit. Honestly, i am not a quitter, and i don't want to be one, because i know for a fact that i am trying my hardest to cope and to do my best in every way i can. Lately, im getting more and more complain :( And it crushed me to death because i know, I am trying my best to cope, and i know for a fact that im just starting and i have a lot of things to learn in order to perfect EVERYTHING. I know i have no right to defend myself because in real world, you are the one whose gonna adjust all the time- not them. Its just sad, because i didn't get the chance to prepare myself for this. I didn't prepare myself to be tougher, smarter, and braver so i can somehow meet their expectations. I know, we are all bound to FAIL one way or another, and so, even if right now, this very moment, im very very discourage, i would still try and try to understand, forgive, and try again and although i feel dejected, slow, flop and a failure, i am still proud of myself because i remain humble and kind despite the things i've experiencing and feeling this moment. Yes, it is a tough world outside, really tough. People will never appreciate your goodness most of the time, they will crush you, and break you and will leave you dumbfounded. But yes, we are all always put to test in order to prove our worth and our strength. We are in this world to grace other people through our goodness despite the evilness of the world. We are bound to fail, because we are also bound to succeed, and we are bound to get hurt, stepped on, crushed because we are bound to grow, to love and to achieve greatness.

I'll leave this with my favorite quote of Mother Teresa:

"People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, People may Accuse you of Selfish, Ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be Honest and Frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway."