He is everywhere.

My first ever corporate event assignment, one word and i couldnt say enough: TIRING.
but i know i did my best. Lagi naman e, in everything i do, i try my best and my hardest to do my job well. Although, im adjusting and coping up, i know i have a LOT of catching up to do.
But honestly, alam kong nahihirapan ako mag-cope. I dunno why, but i felt like quitting. Hindi ko alam, all of a suddent, i felt i wanted to quit because im not happy, and being not happy with what you do means suffering. Alam ko, marami akong uncertainties and worries, and im all mixed up. Hindi ko alam what's with me that makes me feel unsure about a lot of things. Alam ko, im just starting with my work, and ive got a lot of things to learn, and although, i have a lot of uncertainties and fears, i know ive got to fight hard to still believe. More patience Joni, patience is a virtue.

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Went home at 130am. Tired, lonely, sad. he always crept into my thoughts- all the time, anytime. even if im working, even if im travelling, even if im about to sleep, even if i just woke up, even if im eating, even if im texting, even if im just staring at the blank space.

He is everywhere.