He could have been so much more if he's a good guy.

i slept the whole day, and as i woke up, memories of what we had creeps me. Hindi yun madami, pero parang lahat nag-re-replay all at once. Galit ako, as in for the first time in my life, ngayon lang ako nagalit ng ganito sa tao. Im so not like this. Siguro lang, galit din ako sa sarili ko for being too vulnerable and gullible. I hate myself for trusting too much and for falling in love too fast. I hate myself for not learning and listening, kaya eto, im more broken than ever. Feeling ko, i can't be fix by anyone anymore, because im slowly losing trust on man. tama sila e, boys are all the same- they are jerks, losers, and a**sholes. literally speaking. Hindi ako mahilig mag-curse because i dont know how, pero right now, i felt i wanna curse all man. :( Kung sa galit, totoong galit na galit ako, kasi i felt like he treated me like a crap, na im just a toy and i know in my heart that i dont deserve it. He's young and yes, he has the capacity to break every girls heart, pero sayang kasi siya. He could have been so much more if he's a good guy. Hindi cool and mga lalaking pinaglalaruan ang feelings ng mga babae. It makes them so much more of a loser.

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Secondly, i wanna get over with a lot of thoughts about him. I wanna get over him SOON, i wanna get over to the thought that he almost had me. I wanna get over my feelings for him, i wanna get over to this pain and madness. I wanna get over with his kiss. I wanna get over to the thought that i've been fooled. I really really wanna get over HIM, all day long he had consumed me, ayoko na. Kung may ways nga lang akong magagawa for him to change, gusto ko gawin. but he's still young and he's playing around, pero hindi yun excuse para makapanakit siya diba? :(