doubled-up sadness.

having yogurt in MOP
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Another Interview, this time with Rachel in Manila Ocean Park as Customer Assistant in their Bar Lounge. Cool, eh? As usual, tinamad na naman ako sa interview. Even before the interview started, I wanted to quit already. What the hell is happening to me? *sigh* I just felt really really drained and tired of all the shit interviews but ironically, i wanted to get a job. As in badly. Feeling ko, hindi lang self confidence ko ang nawala, but rather, tumaas ang inferiority complex ko. My hope's are diminishing that I'll never ever get my dream job. Pero ano nga ba ang dream job ko? Hindi ko na din alam eh.
I really feel warmed up when i'm with the circle of BOHG (Rachel, Belle, Ann J. As usual), hindi ko masyado nararamdaman yung lungkot but when they started talking about their flight to Singapore next month when we we're chillin' at starbucks MOA, the sadness doubled-up knowing I'll be the left behind. Although susunod naman ako, feeling ko ang tagal tagal pa nun, I couldn't imagine myself without them. Even if im silent about it, the sadness i'll be facing in the coming months without them is tremendous and yes, painful.