Squeezed out.

Went to Asian Traveller Magazine for an interview. Sadly, they're looking for an Accounts Executive and not editorial assistant, but the publisher is so nice that he told me that he'll save my resume in their database when they needed freelance writers. After Makati, went straight to Ortigas for another interview, this time as events assistant. Biglaan nga lang yun eh, i was texted kaninang 10:30 lang, since i'm in Makati na, dumirecho na ako without further thinking. So there, I came in the red office and met new friends named Regine, Xhielle and Nico which is also an applicant. The Interview went okay and easy, pero unlike before, nawala na yung confidence ko when I was being interviewed. Sa sobrang dami na kasi, na-drain na ako eventhough memorize ko na yung lines na sasabihin ko when ask, "tell me about yourself". Been through a lot of interviews already, nakakasawa na. Feeling ko, wala na akong creative juices, it was all squeezed out. Sabi ko dati, mas may edge pag may experience na sa work, pero it doesn't seem to be always that way pala. Sana bumalik na yung dating energy ko when it comes to job interviews.
I want her back, today. Now. I need my old self back again.