summer love.

Maybe, Krinel's right. Instead of reminiscing the past, i should make new beginnings, pick new favorite songs, let go of the old habits and make some change that would make me let go of the 'our' shadow instead of stucking myself with him, our similarities and our memories, because it's undeniably TORTUROUS. I know, it is. I knew it by heart. Iniisip ko nga, hindi lang naman si Emman himself ang minahal ko, but how perfect the relationship was, how he made me feel, how he really really made me happy even if its just a moment, a minute or a second and how he is different from any other guy i met. HE.IS.REALLY.DIFFERENT. I don't know if its just a state of mind, but i felt that he has a good heart, he still just don't know what he really wants. Maybe that's the reason why girls- a lot of girls go over him even if... yes, he's sort of a hooker.
yet, i still believe, that he is a good man, if he chose to be. He's been good to me naman. whether he lied or not that he loves me, the fact that he make me believe in love again... that is something. And maybe, someday, he'll find the right girl who could fill all his longing and then, he'd stop the search. I know, it's not me. i honestly accepted that already. Even if he'd consider me as a summer fling whatsoever, he'd always be the reason why i'd forever love SUMMER.