our songs.

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i am starting to feel so emotional today. I played all the songs that reminded me of HIM, just to prove to myself that im still not over it or him and that, im just suppressing my feelings. but then, i know that it is the right thing to do. Embrace all the pain or the longings, until it fades away. yes, it s*cks but i have no choice. Here's my playlist for today:

* All i need - Side A * Heart of mine - Side A * You Found me - The Fray * Fix you - Coldplay

...and the rest of our songs.

stupid much? Nah. music has been a silent healer, even it sometimes cuts me open and bleeding. Ironic. I know i will be healed. It's not yet my time.

I hurt one of my admirer's feelings today. Admirer talaga? Anyway, i still feel bad about it. I told him that i just knew that we're never gonna be possibe- but not in a bad way. I hope. told him that i just knew what i wanted and needed, and that he's not it- not directly.
Siguro, dala nadin ng pagrereminisce ko today with the past. How I compare him with the other guys, how he made me feel, how i wanted everyone to be like him and what we had. I know, i know, it's not fair. But i still believe, madly believe that someone would just come along and made me forget about the past and probably the future. someone who would just swept me and fly me to heavens. And when the that time comes, then i know, he's the one. Idealistic much? nah. i just have a lot of faith in love, and if i believe it, it'll happen. i just knew it. Minsan lang, napapagod akong maghintay. haha! Anyway, i just hope, that admirer, would understand me and maybe, forgive me for hurting his feelings. He's been there since college, and i really really grateful for that. no doubts.

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Heard the news about the Maguindanao Masaccre, grabe. They have no heart- literally. They should die. I mean, really DIE, thousand times. How could they have done that to women and children? Justice, i hope JUSTICE would WIN. Oh God, please help our country. We need you. Save US.