torn between two tensions.

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I was torn between two tensions: Mam Lorraine and Ate Jenny. It's just too hard because i was both close to them. Mam Lorraine even talked to me regarding Ate Jenny and i can feel na she's having a hard time working with her. But later, i was touched when she said that she's hoping i won't change and that she likes the way i am and whatever happens on the past, wag daw akong magpapaapekto because i am a good person. That makes me swept away and that statement makes me love her more as a boss. Moving on, supposedly, mag lunch kami ni Ate Jenny but Mam Lorraine insist to have lunch with them nalang. We had lunch at Old Spaghetti House in Festival, the conversation is all about Ate Jenny, i explained Ate Jenny's points naman and i hope as some parts, napaintindi ko. It's really hard weighing things especially if may points naman pareho. Tough, really really tough. After lunch, Ate Jenny leaves the office. I felt she doesn't seem to contain it anymore, and i felt in the pit of my stomach that sadly, she's not coming back.

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Meet-up with tween in ATC again. We shared and pour our hearts out that day, we are both in need of alcohol and a friend. After the dinner and one bottle of Gilbeys, na-tripan naming magpictorial sa may circle ng ATC and laughed our hearts out. I had a blast!

PS:
I give in, and tween let me. I asked twin na silipin siya at nakita naman daw niya. labo. haha.
Sana ako nalang nakakita. I just wanted to see him, kahit 5 seconds lang. :|
And before going to sleep, I open his page again, why can't i just stop? :|