hopeful and hopeless.

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i am in between hopeful and hopeless, Hopeless because i saw him online in facebook and my heart crashed when i saw the green online stat and i didn't get a pm from him and hopeful to get a text from him instead, and yes, i did get one! I WIN! he finally text me! im crazy i know. Anyway, interview cancelled, BOO! i did prepare pa naman on meeting tina herrera on person, pero okay na din yun, mas makakapag-prepare ako next time. Ayun, facebook is my breakfast, and when after lunch hits, ka-text ko na si king and jo. Sayang that i wasn't able to be in ATC early. syempre, i wanna see him, pero unluckily, im not a lucky girl.

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When i was on my way to the van, i tripped and got bruised. Kainis. got this from thinking too much. Cge joni, isip pa. Okay, came to atc by 5pm, yan and drew came first, we talked for awhile about how am i feeling, blah.blah.blah, im just happy that they're there for me, being with friends makes me forget that im sad. Dward also came when we were in cinema, then dinner in Shakeys, yanyan's treat ulit. thanks to her sodoxu, haha! Rocher also came just in time for dinner. nomnom. I had fun, laughed hard and eat like we're gonna burst. But once in a while, i checked my fone if his name appeared, sadly, it didn't. Wasn't able to stayed for a coffee, i need to go home just as i promised to mom to be home early. When i was on my way home, a really had a really really bad headache, and yes, thanks for my brain for thinking too much, why can't i just let go all my worries and pains? feeling ko, ang tagal ng byahe, maybe because i really really wanna go home. When i do, i online agad, saw him online on ym, wanted to BADLY and PATHETICALLY for him to pm me, but i was hoping for nothing. Also, nakadagdag yung stat nya sa ym, i wanted to answer him bac na andito naman ako. hello? anyare? :|
*sigh* I always keep thinking over and over, why all the good-hearted are always the one who beg for love?

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PS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARCO.