High and Low.

This day was literally HIGH and LOW. I was so excited during the morning that i can't really focus to work. But as the time ticks, i'm getting more and more down and frustrated. I texted twin for the back-up so i could have someone to be with if he doesn't come. When i came to ATC, i just waited and my mind spins. There a lot of things running through my head and when twin came, i suddenly burst into tears. I'm at the verge of both talking and crying when he texted, i suddenly stop and smiled. you see how fast he can make me feel better? nakakainis. Meet him up in Breadtalk and oh, with his friends. Gulat ako that he's with friends pala at ang dami nila. Sobrang nahiya ako and i really don't know what to say when he said, "hoy, joke lang yun ha?" and i replied back, "lahat naman sayo joke time e".
After that statement, i ended up saying "una na kami" when i'm really not supposed to. I felt like really crying again when we left. Twin and I talked again and again and again and she tried her best to make me feel better and i really do appreciate it, sa totoo lang, i really dont know what i'm gonna do without her. Para kasi akong mababaliw sa pagka-paranoid. I was flying and falling in a really bad way for not knowing what went wrong and what was happening. Magkatext naman kami after the supposedly 'meet-up' pero i can sense that there is really something wrong and i mean, really wrong. siguro nga, misinterpretations. ganun lang kasimple, pero bakit hirap kong intindihin? Still, I can't stop myself for not thinking.